A Miscarriage Journey Support Guide
“You are not alone”
Hello my beautiful and strong friend
Christmas is a hard time for some people. As much as we want to participate in all the Christmas cheer our heart feels heavier. This is my heart this year and some years in the past. As my father’s passing anniversary is in a couple of days it makes a full year of missing him every single day. I feel my body holding onto grief, I feel the emotions rising up.
Another loss I am far to familiar with is the loss of a baby. I have experienced three miscarriages myself.
When I look back at photos I am transported to that time and part. I feel the pain that my past self was drowning in. I remember reading all my affirmation cards minutes before caving and peeing on a stick! it was the faintest line but a line was seen! So in the morning I took another test, this was December 18th, and interestingly December 22nd 2016 was when i told my ttc sisters on instagram. (My dad passed away on December 22nd) We spent the christmas so excited and happy! We told our parents! And then one morning New years eve I started to spot. Immediately, I lost my mind, crying uncontrollably as I called Shawn at work to come home. I had such a strong support group with my online community and we waited in the emergency room and I read those DM and comments. We still had home. Then the doctor pulled us into a side room and said “I am so sorry but your level (HCG - pregnancy hormone levels) had dropped.” Miscarriage was the likely outcome. The world begins to crumble and we went home. Both our mothers came and I sobbed in their arms. We would spend the beginnings of the new year 2017 going through the physical and emotional and mental pain. (I just gotta say having a miscarriage is NOT like a heavy fucking period! Please do not brush it off, this is a very emotional and mental battle as well as the physical)
I wouldn’t get out of bed, my cat cuddled me and cuddled my arm and set his paw over my hospital bracelet. I was so desperate for help to support me and my hubby in this time. And this was the conception of #darriens100daysofhealing that you might be familiar with.
So, a few years later and this time of year still feels heavy and then the added grief of my dad, I wanted to create something that might be helpful. I have created a support guide for those with the experience or currently walking through miscarriage. This was what I was searching for and I collected the information and my own teachings in a guide for you to read when the time is right. I know I cannot take away the pain, and it isn’t my intention to cure your pain and your heartbreak. This is a serving tool for your own healing journey.
I am so so sorry you are experiencing such difficulty right now. You are a warrior!
I hope you find light with this supportive guide and tool for your healing journey
If you would like to have more resources such as a complementary support group both Online and In Prince George, or find more information and resources (Join "subscribe" you will be told of my online programs and events such as Yoga for Fertility and Healing and my complementary Fertility tips guide)
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Sending you and your spirit babies love and light
Darrien Minnie